[ She reads that several times. I kissed him and it freaked him out. I kissed him. I kissed him. And it finally lands, why she was upset with Phainon in the beginning. Why his insistence made her so angry. Because he is so lucky - lucky to have someone he cares about and who cares about him - but he's running away from it. ]
doesnt matter. hes stupid and stubborn and overthinking and im still pissed off
[ Mydeimos knows exactly why Phainon is running - he feels ashamed. He doesn't think he deserves it. Which is a whole can of worms Mydeimos hasn't even begun to open.
Cipher's response, though, has him raising both eyebrows. ]
Tell me something I don't know.
Do you want to get a drink or something? You can complain to me.
[ Look this is officially let Cipher vent about Phainon hours. Mydeimos sends her the notification of a nearby bar.
When she arrives he's still deferring to the weather, though the oversized jacket has been traded for a leather one and a scarf these days as he waits outside. ]
[ Cipher's also wearing more practical clothes this time: an oversized sweater not the virgin killer, with cute, denim shorts over opaque leggings, and her usual heels. Her tail has its own "sweater" to keep warm. ]
Mydeimos. [ She tries to match his cadence, but it's no good because just getting outside, out of whatever hole she's tucked herself into, has done wonders for her mood. She practically skips over to him. ] Dear little prince, you're sure a sight for sore eyes.
[ He smirks down at her, reaching up to ruffle the hair between her ears. He's just happy she seems to be adjusting okay so far, and he lets her loop an arm around him if she'd like as he heads in.
It's not a highbrow bar; it looks like it wants to be a dive bar, only there's no real grime or clientele for such a thing. The end result is an overly rich impression of what a dive bar is, too polished and clean in places. It's the least fancy option he could come up with. ]
[ It's almost embarrassing how easily Cipher leans into that hair ruffle, the warmth of his touch, and she absolutely loops an arm around him. She's beginning to realize just how touch-starved she's been. ]
Table. Won't be able to rant properly with my back exposed.
[ And she still, despite the turbulence, respects Phainon and his privacy. A booth would be preferable, but if there isn't one, then at least they can pick a secluded table. Less prying ears.
They get seated across from each other, and Cipher doesn't hesitate to interlock her ankles with Mydei's under the table. Like she'll float away if she doesn't hold on to him. ]
[ Mydeimos probably did not seem like the type for physical affection back home; but he had a role to uphold as the prince, and frankly he finds physical affection easier than verbal. So he lets his arm fall around her shoulders lightly until they find a place to sit.
There is a booth, tucked away in the back corner, so he guides them to it. He picks up a (somehow slightly sticky) menu to glance over the drink options when she speaks, and he looks up. ]
Because I have spent many years dealing with his brain, and you have not.
[ Arguably she's older than them both in general, but she doesn't often spend time in Okhema. ]
... but I can't go getting annoyed every time he gets all up in his head. [ And that's barely scratching the surface. ] We'll be miserable.
[ She picks at the corner of her own menu, flicking the lamination with her nail until it peels. ] We should stick together. He said as much. You didn't say it in as many words, but I think you agree.
[ When the waitstaff comes by, she orders a Milk Punch. ]
I do. I know you can take care of yourself, but it puts me at ease.
[ Which is as honest as he'll get. When she orders, he follows up by adding a Forbidden Sour, precisely because of the main ingredient. ]
I do not intend to let him run from me for long. Though I have learned he needs his space, I have also learned leaving him in his own head is... a problem.
[ Pettily: ]
He has only been allowed to avoid me so long because I am mad too.
Yeah, you gotta explain what happened with you guys first. You kissed him and he ran off?? You can't be that bad of a kisser, what the hell.
[ His little bit of pettiness has Cipher feeling like she can tease about this now. And it's not like she and Mydei have kissed, so how would she know! ]
We had to share a shower at the local gym. He insisted on washing my hair, and I pointed out that I do not let people do that often. He leaned in, I kissed him, someone in the next stall made a noise, and he startled and ran off.
[ He shrugs, but it's clear the situation bothers him. ]
[ He insisted on washing Mydei's hair. He leaned in. And yet, Phainon was the one so steadfast about there being nothing between them. Just who was he trying to prove - and why even bother being so stubborn about it -
Cipher's lip curls. Pure, unfiltered disdain crossing her features. ]
[ Of course. She can't say she's surprised or doesn't understand. They can tell Phainon they forgive him until they're blue in the face, but words will always just be words. Words can only hold so much weight against the guilt of over 33 million cycles. ]
I think that's what made me so mad when we argued. Like, I get it, I do. [ She starts tearing up a napkin, shredding it into thin, long strips. ] But that stuff doesn't matter here. Not as much.
He has it so good here. He has you here.
[ And that's something she could literally only wish for. ]
It might not 'matter' here, but it still happened.
[ Mydei's voice is gentler when he speaks; not because he's empathizing with Phainon but because he understands, to some degree, what (or rather who) she is missing.
It's hard to imagine being here alone. It's even harder to imagine being here alone while people he knows fight like fools. ]
It is also easy to worry after him and not address others, either.
[ His circuitous way of offering to talk about it, if she wants. ]
[ The server comes at the perfect time, then, bringing them their drinks and giving Cipher time to take a sip (it's tasty. creamy) and think about what she wants to say - or, what she doesn't want to say. ]
I know. [ That it happened, that it's impossible to completely ignore that it happened. Especially for Phainon. And that it's easy to focus on him, the one who's been the center of everything. Their Delivered. The golden child. Aglaea's golden child.
Cipher swallows down another mouthful of the drink. It burns going down this time, too much. ]
And I'm not worrying about him! I offered him some wise ass words of wisdom, and if he doesn't want to listen, then so be it. He has to figure his own shit out, without getting us caught in the crossfire. Especially you!
[ It's still not easy for her to talk about it, that longing ever present in her heart, so she deflects as always. ]
[ He takes a sip of his drink as well as she speaks. It's sour, tart and precisely what he needs right now. He makes at face at her as she tells him to be more mad. ]
I am mad. Just because I know why doesn't mean I'm not angry at him. Until he shows his face around me again, I will remain so.
[ He's been giving Phainon his space, but he'll hunt him down eventually. ]
[ She asked- she told Phainon point-blank that she thought Mydei was blowing his back out and Phainon said no. She knows something happened at the ice rink between the two, but she doesn't know what. Because then he'd started getting all cagey and she'd gotten annoyed. ]
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ok well now i want to do that specifically
Date: 2026-01-24 01:32 am (UTC)what if she keeps changing it
Date: 2026-01-24 01:49 am (UTC)we got into an argument and he pissed me off
why is he avoiding YOU
i'll change it every time i tag someone
Date: 2026-01-24 01:51 am (UTC)[ He's fairly sure he knows why it freaked him out, but he pauses. ]
Wait, he got into an argument with you? About what?
PLEASE that would be so funny
Date: 2026-01-24 02:03 am (UTC)doesnt matter. hes stupid and stubborn and overthinking and im still pissed off
:3 she should steal it at the party
Date: 2026-01-24 02:15 am (UTC)Cipher's response, though, has him raising both eyebrows. ]
Tell me something I don't know.
Do you want to get a drink or something? You can complain to me.
consider it stolen! its for his own good
Date: 2026-01-24 03:12 am (UTC)[ That's... a disservice to Phainon, but whatever. ]
i can't wait to see what she comes up with
Date: 2026-01-24 04:02 am (UTC)When she arrives he's still deferring to the weather, though the oversized jacket has been traded for a leather one and a scarf these days as he waits outside. ]
Cipher.
it ranges from obscene to idk princesspaws
Date: 2026-01-24 09:31 pm (UTC)not the virgin killer, with cute, denim shorts over opaque leggings, and her usual heels. Her tail has its own "sweater" to keep warm. ]Mydeimos. [ She tries to match his cadence, but it's no good because just getting outside, out of whatever hole she's tucked herself into, has done wonders for her mood. She practically skips over to him. ] Dear little prince, you're sure a sight for sore eyes.
dickdei to princesspaws
Date: 2026-01-25 06:55 am (UTC)[ He smirks down at her, reaching up to ruffle the hair between her ears. He's just happy she seems to be adjusting okay so far, and he lets her loop an arm around him if she'd like as he heads in.
It's not a highbrow bar; it looks like it wants to be a dive bar, only there's no real grime or clientele for such a thing. The end result is an overly rich impression of what a dive bar is, too polished and clean in places. It's the least fancy option he could come up with. ]
Bar or table?
longcocklion
Date: 2026-01-28 01:48 am (UTC)Table. Won't be able to rant properly with my back exposed.
[ And she still, despite the turbulence, respects Phainon and his privacy. A booth would be preferable, but if there isn't one, then at least they can pick a secluded table. Less prying ears.
They get seated across from each other, and Cipher doesn't hesitate to interlock her ankles with Mydei's under the table. Like she'll float away if she doesn't hold on to him. ]
I don't know how you deal with him.
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Date: 2026-01-28 02:13 am (UTC)There is a booth, tucked away in the back corner, so he guides them to it. He picks up a (somehow slightly sticky) menu to glance over the drink options when she speaks, and he looks up. ]
Because I have spent many years dealing with his brain, and you have not.
[ Arguably she's older than them both in general, but she doesn't often spend time in Okhema. ]
Not that you should have to.
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Date: 2026-01-28 03:02 am (UTC)... but I can't go getting annoyed every time he gets all up in his head. [ And that's barely scratching the surface. ] We'll be miserable.
[ She picks at the corner of her own menu, flicking the lamination with her nail until it peels. ] We should stick together. He said as much. You didn't say it in as many words, but I think you agree.
[ When the waitstaff comes by, she orders a Milk Punch. ]
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Date: 2026-01-28 03:14 am (UTC)[ Which is as honest as he'll get. When she orders, he follows up by adding a Forbidden Sour, precisely because of the main ingredient. ]
I do not intend to let him run from me for long. Though I have learned he needs his space, I have also learned leaving him in his own head is... a problem.
[ Pettily: ]
He has only been allowed to avoid me so long because I am mad too.
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Date: 2026-01-28 03:53 am (UTC)Yeah, you gotta explain what happened with you guys first. You kissed him and he ran off?? You can't be that bad of a kisser, what the hell.
[ His little bit of pettiness has Cipher feeling like she can tease about this now. And it's not like she and Mydei have kissed, so how would she know! ]
cipher like give me the goss
Date: 2026-01-28 04:04 am (UTC)[ Still, after he says it he grimaces at her. ]
We had to share a shower at the local gym. He insisted on washing my hair, and I pointed out that I do not let people do that often. He leaned in, I kissed him, someone in the next stall made a noise, and he startled and ran off.
[ He shrugs, but it's clear the situation bothers him. ]
I assume it was simply too much at once.
i'm so sorry she's like this
Date: 2026-01-29 12:00 am (UTC)Cipher's lip curls. Pure, unfiltered disdain crossing her features. ]
I think I have to kill that guy.
cipher's the real one
Date: 2026-01-29 05:20 am (UTC)[ Mydeimos does roll his eyes as he says it, but the tone at least seems to lighten him a little. ]
As I said, I think it was too much. Given everything he has been through and remembers, he likely thinks he is unworthy.
the friend who's answer to everything is "kill him"
Date: 2026-01-30 02:17 am (UTC)I think that's what made me so mad when we argued. Like, I get it, I do. [ She starts tearing up a napkin, shredding it into thin, long strips. ] But that stuff doesn't matter here. Not as much.
He has it so good here. He has you here.
[ And that's something she could literally only wish for. ]
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Date: 2026-01-31 01:52 am (UTC)[ Mydei's voice is gentler when he speaks; not because he's empathizing with Phainon but because he understands, to some degree, what (or rather who) she is missing.
It's hard to imagine being here alone. It's even harder to imagine being here alone while people he knows fight like fools. ]
It is also easy to worry after him and not address others, either.
[ His circuitous way of offering to talk about it, if she wants. ]
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Date: 2026-02-02 02:40 am (UTC)I know. [ That it happened, that it's impossible to completely ignore that it happened. Especially for Phainon. And that it's easy to focus on him, the one who's been the center of everything. Their Delivered. The golden child. Aglaea's golden child.
Cipher swallows down another mouthful of the drink. It burns going down this time, too much. ]
And I'm not worrying about him! I offered him some wise ass words of wisdom, and if he doesn't want to listen, then so be it. He has to figure his own shit out, without getting us caught in the crossfire. Especially you!
[ It's still not easy for her to talk about it, that longing ever present in her heart, so she deflects as always. ]
Be more mad at him!
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Date: 2026-02-02 02:47 am (UTC)I am mad. Just because I know why doesn't mean I'm not angry at him. Until he shows his face around me again, I will remain so.
[ He's been giving Phainon his space, but he'll hunt him down eventually. ]
He is being cowardly.
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Date: 2026-02-02 03:06 am (UTC)[ Show him that he's worthy of this, she doesn't say. It's okay for him to want and feel good. ]
I'm gonna crash out if you two haven't banged by the next time I see you.
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Date: 2026-03-05 08:35 pm (UTC)He could lie, not that he likes to make a habit of it, but settles on: ]
Define "banging".
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Date: 2026-03-06 02:02 am (UTC)Dick in ass.
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Date: 2026-03-06 02:10 am (UTC)[ There's so much unsaid in that. ]